Camera Spoilt

Was at the JM shoot today happily taking photosgraphs when the camera gave up on me.

The entire reflex mirror came off. Now i'm without a camera and i have a shoot on thursday. Should you know of anyting who has a digital SLR to lend me for 1 day, on thursday, please contact me.

Help much appreciated.

rotten

Have been rotting the whole day. Nothing much. Yesterday went to Zouk for NUS preview Bash. The guys - ok nia... And i think one of the contestants is an AJ... saw him outside maxwell wif his AJ friend after the competition. That explains the thick makeup during the pagent itself. Went to sweat at happy thereafter.

Nothing much to blog about.

Nitez.

Company Website Revamped

Nth much today. Shaking legs in the office also.

Came home and revamped my company's website - http://www.film5.org/

Now, it's time to sleep as i'm tired from all that revamping.

Tomorrow having NUS Pagent @ 7.30pm at Zouk and BRAVE is the official modelling agency. Then off to Happy for Sweat @ 11.30pm.

Goodnight!

Trevvy under test

Trevvy's launched - but it's still under test. And i'm in office - shaking legs.

No use using it when i dun even know how to use the admin functions nor do i have access to it.

What can i do? I'm being ignored. I'm unwanted.

Sobs.

Trevvy.com is now LIVE

Trevvy.com is now live!

Months of hard work is finally paid off with Trevvy BETA.

And to the team who done it - Cheers!


Visit it at http://www.trevvy.com now.

End of SGBOY Era

There's no more SGBOY. It's the end of SGBOY. SGBOY's gone. SGBOY is no longer THE anything anymore. Trevvy's THE thing.

Trevvy will be launched sometime tomorrow.

It's kinda sad seeing sgboy go... 7 years...

Am very tired. Dunno why...

Nitez...

Everything's fine

I'm not committing suicide. Please... People have been asking me how things are and so on... After a night's rest, i'm fine.

I'm now more concerned about the launch Trevvy in less than 72 hours time than anything else. Read more about it here

And i may be having a new god-brother soon... After my one and only one turned straight - thanks to CHOICES. It's not a replacement mind you.

I should be sleep soon i guess... didn't sleep well last night...

Tata...

Jinxed in Love & Relationships

Lotsa things recently. First - Trevvy. Second - Ian & Tyler. Third - Alex. These 3 things are enough to make me crazy and stressed.

Trevvy's launched is delayed again. Ian and Tyler broke up again. It's hard being a good friend. NOt when you can't bring 2 persons face to face and then asking them to talk about it. O Wells, just another complicated issue.

Tyler's becoming a Brave model. Tyler finds Alex cute. Tyler's got the looks and the height. First Tyler asked me (or us, with alex) out for movie. Then he just asked Alex out, maybe coz i was slow in replying. Fine. I was feeling sad or jealous thereafter.

Why should i get affected??? Oh gosh. I'm not even attached to Alex. I'm not even his Partner. well, business partner - yes. But why can't he just get out of my head? This is seriously not helping. I should just stay away from him and stop meeting him.

What's the point of making myself feel hurt and bad when he's not even my partner?!?!? Grrr... I'm always in the losing end - yeah!

Caring for him - yes, coz i guess i still like him. But what's the use of having a 1 sided love and to get hurt in return? it's no point. useless. just hurting myself even more. I had a little thought about suicide for the first time. Oh My! why did i??? That should never even come to my mind. What will happen to my parents? To Dom? To ASM??? To all my friends??? well, suicide is never the way out. it's only for losers - I'm not. I've saved by GRACE by GOD! Oh my - i'm tearing.... GOD! FATHER! HELP ME! WORTHY IS THE LAMB!

Sigh...

Time to sleep. - Thanks very much Christel.

NItez.

Swimming

Nothing much today. Very tired as i went swimning with Lennel after work at Kallang Basin pool.

Came back and i bought $5 worth of sushi - all my hard work wasted. Sigh...

Time to sleep. Long day tomorrow. Trevvy's launching real soon - so that means more work - have been busy la...

Nitez.

Happy Birthday Singapore

It's 9 August 2006. Singapore's 41th Birthday. Happy Birthday Singapore!

Rotted almost the whole day at home. Thanks to Hendri, i went out, else i would have became a pig. Met him for dinner at TCC Bugis Junction. Thereafter, we went over to Marina Square via Suntec City. Suntec's really empty today and MS had more people. Normally it would be the other way round instead. Had the Japanese Swensens and headed back to citylink. Poor him, had to go back to office to collect some stuffs. Met Alex along the way and we took the train home together.

Other than that, nothing much. Enjoyed the time with Hendri though... He likes going Malaysia and i do too.. maybe can go there together one of these days. i miss going to Malaysia.

Goodnight people.

Shagged out @ Nite

Edwin is Alex's younger brother. What a small world this is, especially on this little red dot. Went out with Edwin to SportsmenAsia to get his TEN by intense, however it was sold out.

Woke up on sunday morning and took a cab to gleneagles hospital for my assignment. Arrived at 8am and patient was already wide awake in bed. Saw my ex-classmate, Wilson - he was the night nurse. Chatt with him for a while and then took over. Rested for a while and the patient's wife came at 9am. She was surprised that i was there as she didn't request for a day nurse. A mis-communication occured. By right, i was supposed to charge a cancellation fee of $50, but then i just waived it for her as i didn't even do anything. Must one be so calculative in life? She asked to come back at night for night shift instead and i agreed.

I came back at night and she paid me my "salary" and gave me $20 as allowance for the morning. That was so nice of her. I declined, but she kinda forced it down me, so i gladly accepted it. At first, everything was fine.

6/8/06, 2100 - Patient sat out of bed on chair.
6/8/06, 2200 - Patient still on chair, not sleeping, wide awake.
6/8/06, 2359 - Patient still on chair, not sleeping, wide awake.
6/8/06, 2359 - Patient still on chair, not sleeping, wide awake.
7/8/06, 0100 - Patient still on chair, not sleeping, wide awake.
7/8/06, 0200 - Patient still on chair, not sleeping, wide awake.
7/8/06, 0300 - Patient still on chair. Didn't want to go back to bed to sleep. I could not close my eyes even for a wink as he always wanted to stand up. And it's not a geri chair, just a normal armchair.
0330 - Patient urinated on chair and on floor. Began cleaning up. This was just the begining.
0350 - Finished cleaning up and put patient back to bed. Thought that i could now close my eyes...
0355 - Patient became restless in bed. Upon checking, he PUed and BOed on the bed. I went to prepare to clean him up.
0425 - Done with cleaning up patient, changing gown for patient and changing the entire bedsheet.
0430 - Patient became restless. Attempted to climb out of bed. Stopped him and had a debate with him (chix and dux talk).
0500 - Gave in to patient and allowed him to walk bit by bit up and down the corridor of the ward.
0530 - Stood along the corrdior outside the ward. Insisted in not wanting to back to his room.
0600 - Still standing along the corrdior outside the ward. Persuaded him to go back to sleep but patient refused.
0645 - AM shift staff arrived and managed to talk him round and got him back into the room. Cleaned him up upon reaching the room.
0700 - Rested on wheelchair.
0750 - Insisted on me taking him for another round of walk.
0820 - Left patient after telling ward sister and went to work.

Whole day at work. Alpha testing of Trevvy and then wen to popular orchard with my boss to buy papers for the media kit and paper clips. Came back and took over the remaining tasks for Brave as my collegue will be going to hong kong for holidays.

Came home, totally shagged. Blogging now and going 2 collaspe onto my bed - hopefully for an uninterrupted sleep.

Goodnitez!

Packed weekend ahead

Has been a real busy and tiring week.

Went to SportsmenAsia and the owner, Ken said that i looked stressed and worn down... guess i really have to slow down a little and just focus on the Almighty one above.

A power-packed weekend for this and the next. 2 powerful events. this weekend, 4-6 august, Festival of Praise @ indoor stadium. Don Moen is back!

11 and 12 August, Planet shakers concert @ Expo max pavilion. Tickets selling at S$4 for students and NSFs and S$8 for adults.

So ya.. 5 powerpacked, powerful evenings. Be there, at least 1 night to be filled by God. I'm sure that you'll be greatly enriched. I'll be going on the 5th and 12th. Let me know if you wanna tag along with me.

Goodnight!

Chevrons

Nothing much today. Sweat last night at Happy. Gina, one of our female volunteers went missing. Hunted for her. Couldn't find her. Found out this morning that she was sleeping at the rooftop till 6am.

Went to church for the 30th anniversary celebration. Service ended and went to meet one of my new friend. I can't mention his name as i have to protect his identity. It's rather sensative. By saying his name, i forsee a big storm brewing causing a havock. While he had his lunch, i had milkshake as i was already full, thanks to my church for feeding me.. haha...

Went home and slept as i was very exhausted. However, i couldn't sleep well - i couldn't have an uninterrupted sleep. That's what i dislike the most. An Interrupted Sleep.

Met up with Alex and we went together to Jared's chalet @ Chevrons. Nothing much. Nearly got lost though. haha... Well, my GPS was working, just that i was misled. haha... Chatted with him and discussed about his internship opportunity in my company. He'll get back to me and if he does have his internship in my company, i'll have to start generating projects. Have to be working extra hard and thereafter plan my financial budget le.

Is this a good or bad thing? When i'm out with Alex now, at least i dun feel as though as we're a couple. I don't have the feeling of missing him anymore and i do not feel like wanting him asmy other half. It's just a liking that's still lingering. Why? I do not know. I guess that i'm no longer love-sick and that's a good sign i would say. But still when i do meet him, i feel good. It's better to stay as friends than being as partners and after breaking up, being strangers.

Time to sleep soon. It's been a long day and tomorrow will be another long day. I'll have to rush so many things. Well, life's like that, what can we do?

And ya, the song playing now, is written by my church member, Bridget Goh. She wrote the song initially for her mission trip last year and i did a recording for her cd in which she brought it over to Philippines. I'm so honored to be one of the first persons who supported her. And now in the album, it's being sang by my god-ma, Jingle.

Your Will Be Done

Lord, will You show me the way
Guide me this day
To understand Your purpose
I Come before You and pray
Let me not stray
From walking in Your presence
I'm so afriad to lose my faith
In You my Lord my Maker
Give me strength to overcome this
It's You I want to please

And I will trust in the Lord
Lean not on my own understanding
In all of my ways, acknowledge Him
Let Your will be done in my life
Let Your will be done in my life

Lord, will You use me this day
I'll do as You say
Come take away my fears
I know, it's You that will reign
You're always the same
Your promises are true
I give to You my hopes and dreams
Will You use me for Your glory
I surrender all that I am
Proclaim that You are King

Faithful by BPMC - Released

After awaiting for almost 3 years for an audio CD, it's finally out! Entitled Faithful, A Tribute to a Faithful God, this CD is recorded in Singapore and features 13 popular praise and worship songs and hymns, resung by BPMC members as well as a live recording of Great Is Thy Faithfulness by the church congregation. A new song, written by Bridgett Goh, Your Will Be Done is also included.

This CD is sold only in BPMC and those who wishes to purchase it may email info@bpmc.info.

Executive Producer and Copyright by Bethesda Pasir-Ris Mission Church, 2006.

Interview

Went to MCYS today for an interview. I volunteered to be a Volunteer Probation Officer.

The officers were friendly and i was in there for almost half and hour, throwing questions back and forth. All volunteers are required to take up 1 case = 1 person, Case Management. Should be able to commit for a long term basis. Probation period = from 6 to 36 months. Must make contact with client at least 4 times a month, 2 of which must be face to face, anywhere. Sounds fun and interesting.

They'll let me know the outcome of the interview in 2 weeks time if i'm successful and i'll be on a 10 hour course starting on the 26th of august and thereafter, i'm to manage a case le.

Nothing much for now. Taxi fares has risen and it's not a laughing matter. The weekend's coming le... I'll be packed this saturday. Buffet Tim Sum @ Tung Lok East Coast Park for lunch at noon and then to OC's training and thereafter to a meeting. Sweat @ nite. And i can't escape church the next day coz it's my church's 30th anniversary. So i'll just guai guai go back. haha....

Anyone wanna come with me to my church this sunday? I've asked Alex, but dunno if he's confirmed a not... Any others???

And before i close, a picture of a cute bear with it's head stuck in a computer. Nah - it's actually a USB bear. a thumbdrive la... haha...

Time 2 sleep. Goodnites.

Nothing much

Nothing much to write about these days. No happenings in my life. Just normal routine stuffs. Eat, sleep, shit.

Unable to fix the blinds in my office. Not professional enough to be a handyman.

Will apply for Diploma in Nursing in Decmeber at Ngee Ann Poly. Chances of me getting in are slim though.

Nitez.

OC Interview

Nothing much today again. Boss having stiff neck again. Think he didn't sleep properly. Somemore blame me for always blowing the aircon at him. I'm accused. Den he went ma guang to have cups placed on him. haha... and came back WITHOUT the smelly koh-yo.

Went to Ooga Chaga for an interview with Bryan and found out more about them. Not very taxing their phone duty. an average of twice per month.

Nothing much to blog about. I'm considering if i should take an intern for my company... hehe...

Cheers!

Superman Returns

Went to watch Superman Returns this evening. Ok la... didn't fall asleep. And Alex was there to keep me warm.. haha...

Nothing much to blog about today. Had lunch with my dad at Qiji at Beach Towers. Realised that Lennel's working there as well. We could have lunch or dinner one day together.

I might should happy, but i'm still in a state of loss.

Cheerios!

Milkshake

Nothing much today. Went to work as usual. Boss was feeling sick today after his Thailand trip. It's always like that when he travels overseas. Maybe he shouldn't even travel. Only Malaysia - across the causeway, so by land, no sea. haha...

Had prok porridge from Rochor market for lunch. so-so only la... not really that great and that lady selling it to me sounded like as though as her porridge is soo goood until i will want to go back to buy more like that. Well, i tell u, i wun ever go back, unless dom's sick or i'm sick den need to eat porridge lorz... Oh my.. i'm so bad. okie, i take back my words...

Went out with Tim at nite. Was supposed to go to TCC for a drink so i borrowed Dom's card but in the end, went to Billy Bombers instead. I had potato salad and cookies and cream shake. I'm feeling so guilty now, but the shake was real good though. haha... oh btw, Tim was my ex. My 2nd one in fact. My first was Darren, his brother Derrick (not a PLU) is still my good friend and we go out once in a while.

Will be going to watch Superman Returns tomorrow with Alex. Boss was commenting along the line of: Why still Alex??? Well, can't I still not go out with him even though we're not dating? Just how gay is superman? I'll find out myself tomorrow. haha...

Now, looking at my mIRC screen, there's this channel, #myplace, it's full of activities now. It was so dead just moments ago. All the memories i had while i was (and still am) in there last time. That was the very first "family" channel i joined ever since i came out, not openly though, apart from sgboy. I still remember that Samuel was the one who actually invited me over. I still see Samuel now a days over at Attica as he's actually part of the Super Sunday Party team.

Maybe, i should just have a post one day on me, my life and I. Everthing about me since i was young and all the way till now. How i came out and how i realised that i was a gay and until now, being open and out and proud about it.

Time for bed. Goodnight peeps!

Casting Call

Wanted: Boys and Girls who looks 13 to 17. The pair will be needed for a photoshoot a new portal, to be started off as a forum for teens and relationships.

If you think you fit that category, email talents@film5.org.

And i've been fine. Thanks for all the concern still pouring in. We're close friends now - to me. To him, i dunno. At least now i know that i wun be left alone if i ever get drunk. haha..

Will be watching Superman on wednesday. Just how gay is superman huh?

Cheers and God Bless!