It's Wednesday.
4 functions today. Very Tiring.
Good friend relationships can turn sour. It's happening to my friend. I'm concerned. Tired calling. No response. Keeping my fingers crossed. Prays.
Tomorrow's Nattie's concert. Still dunno who to go with.
Set up a new subsidary company of Film Five. Grace Talent Management. www.grace.info
Sleeping Time.
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Durian Feast
Today had been a day of work in camp. At the same time, i managed to prevent getting arrows by staying inside my new store over at the mt line... well, not too good also, as one day, i'll be reported dead due to carbon monoxide intoxication... Poh Liang was in my store sleeping.. for almost an hour... Poor him, he didn't have a very good day...
Went out with him for dinner... We had Durians for dinner.. 9 Durians in total.. and he stopped eating first... making me the rubbish bin.. whahhaa....
I'm feeling very very guilty... durians... lotsa carbo and lotsa sugar...... argh... i should take a hypocount of myself now... guess it should be 24mmOl. whaha....
He was so cute when he bought dinner for his mum, thanking the food-seller trice, saying "Xie Xie Aunty"... Let me see.. i guess his reaction now if he reads this would be -_- or O.0... haha... Whoever has him as their boyfriend or partner would be very very very lucky and fortunate... Truely.
I touched my keyboard... Played it for about 30 mins... My my.. having not played with it for a month, and i've kinda lost touch. My fingers didn't know where to go to... haha.... Looked back at my Grade 1 music book... Hhmm... it was in 1996 then.... Whoa.. i've come a long way.... I obliged to teach poh liang how to play the piano.. haha... so i've to polish up a little before i can teach him.. if not wait very malu.. hahaha...
Anyway, time for bed...
Went out with him for dinner... We had Durians for dinner.. 9 Durians in total.. and he stopped eating first... making me the rubbish bin.. whahhaa....
I'm feeling very very guilty... durians... lotsa carbo and lotsa sugar...... argh... i should take a hypocount of myself now... guess it should be 24mmOl. whaha....
He was so cute when he bought dinner for his mum, thanking the food-seller trice, saying "Xie Xie Aunty"... Let me see.. i guess his reaction now if he reads this would be -_- or O.0... haha... Whoever has him as their boyfriend or partner would be very very very lucky and fortunate... Truely.
I touched my keyboard... Played it for about 30 mins... My my.. having not played with it for a month, and i've kinda lost touch. My fingers didn't know where to go to... haha.... Looked back at my Grade 1 music book... Hhmm... it was in 1996 then.... Whoa.. i've come a long way.... I obliged to teach poh liang how to play the piano.. haha... so i've to polish up a little before i can teach him.. if not wait very malu.. hahaha...
Anyway, time for bed...
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Han River
Camp was as per normal today. Boring.
Went to cut my hair over at Vibes Hairdressing. They might be shifting soon as their lease ends in october.
Thereafter, i went to han river over at eastpoint for dinner. Met up with my old buddies from agape as well as xin mei quan dao aka pastor naomi. it has been 5 years since we last met her. She told us about south africa. she stays over at Cape Town and she's a PR there...
Ate lotsa food.... think i've overeaten as now my tummy's not feeling comfortable... sigh...
I hear someting calling... oh.. it's the bed... okie... it's bedtime... Goodnight...
Went to cut my hair over at Vibes Hairdressing. They might be shifting soon as their lease ends in october.
Thereafter, i went to han river over at eastpoint for dinner. Met up with my old buddies from agape as well as xin mei quan dao aka pastor naomi. it has been 5 years since we last met her. She told us about south africa. she stays over at Cape Town and she's a PR there...
Ate lotsa food.... think i've overeaten as now my tummy's not feeling comfortable... sigh...
I hear someting calling... oh.. it's the bed... okie... it's bedtime... Goodnight...
Monday, June 27, 2005
Working and Sleeping on Sabbath
It's Sabbath again. Sabbath is a day for rest and worshipping God. I spent my Sabbath doing the former.
I received a call when i was window shopping with my parents at Parkway Parade's Giant hypermart in the evening from my nursing agency, Nicole. I've been givne an assignment to take care of an individual patient over at mount e hospital. I decided to take it. Well, actually i was hestitating as i was suppose to go over to happy to distribute the condoms from 11.30pm to 4am... but my mum asked me to do the assignment instead...
I halted window shopping and went back home to bathe and get changed into my uniform. It's been a long time since i last got into my private nursing uniform. The last time was about 2 to 3 months ago. My parents accompanied me over to the hospital. Actually, they brought me there as i didn't know the way there as i haven't been to that hospital before.
Nothing much happened through the night. All was peaceful. How i wish i can have these type of patients whenever i'm on call.. hahah... He hasn't been eating much therefore his bowel movement isn't a lot and he has ESRF aka End Stage Renal Failure... so he doesn't micurate aka pass urine.. so i didn't have to bother about him wetting the dipers.. hehe...
I knocked off at 8am and i headed home to sleep... I woke up only at 7pm and went for dinner at bedok south hawker center. Ate quite a fair share too...
Now i'm back and i'm feeling tired again... Why is this so? Am i turning into a baby therefore i need lotsa rest??? 11 hours a day?
Goodnight People... Look forward to another day. I do. It's going to be July soon. Yeah! And i'm so looking forward to April next year.. you should know the reason why... whahahha......
Cheerio!
I received a call when i was window shopping with my parents at Parkway Parade's Giant hypermart in the evening from my nursing agency, Nicole. I've been givne an assignment to take care of an individual patient over at mount e hospital. I decided to take it. Well, actually i was hestitating as i was suppose to go over to happy to distribute the condoms from 11.30pm to 4am... but my mum asked me to do the assignment instead...
I halted window shopping and went back home to bathe and get changed into my uniform. It's been a long time since i last got into my private nursing uniform. The last time was about 2 to 3 months ago. My parents accompanied me over to the hospital. Actually, they brought me there as i didn't know the way there as i haven't been to that hospital before.
Nothing much happened through the night. All was peaceful. How i wish i can have these type of patients whenever i'm on call.. hahah... He hasn't been eating much therefore his bowel movement isn't a lot and he has ESRF aka End Stage Renal Failure... so he doesn't micurate aka pass urine.. so i didn't have to bother about him wetting the dipers.. hehe...
I knocked off at 8am and i headed home to sleep... I woke up only at 7pm and went for dinner at bedok south hawker center. Ate quite a fair share too...
Now i'm back and i'm feeling tired again... Why is this so? Am i turning into a baby therefore i need lotsa rest??? 11 hours a day?
Goodnight People... Look forward to another day. I do. It's going to be July soon. Yeah! And i'm so looking forward to April next year.. you should know the reason why... whahahha......
Cheerio!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
It's Wednesday... Nopez, it's Thursday.
I've been thinking that today's still wednesday and am dreading that i've 2 more days before the weekend comes... And i only realised that today's thursday after i opened a loan voucher for someone, after that person pointed out to me that the date was wrong.... whahaha... well, am i living in history?
And even after that incident, i'm still living in wednesday... I totally forgot that i had a lighting workshop to attend until i was on the bus on my way home. it was too late then as the workshop starts at 7pm at cuppage and by the time i arrived at bedok, it was already 7.15pm.
I'm shifting my store tomorrow and i'm not looking forward to that. Tomorrow night i'll be going back to my own church as i heard that help is needed to "help the youth-at-risk" as they'll be visiting our church.. so ya... and since i've always been involved with youth-at-risks, i've been asked to volunteer..
i'm tired again.. i'm always feeling tired.. am i having premature ageing???
sob sob...
And even after that incident, i'm still living in wednesday... I totally forgot that i had a lighting workshop to attend until i was on the bus on my way home. it was too late then as the workshop starts at 7pm at cuppage and by the time i arrived at bedok, it was already 7.15pm.
I'm shifting my store tomorrow and i'm not looking forward to that. Tomorrow night i'll be going back to my own church as i heard that help is needed to "help the youth-at-risk" as they'll be visiting our church.. so ya... and since i've always been involved with youth-at-risks, i've been asked to volunteer..
i'm tired again.. i'm always feeling tired.. am i having premature ageing???
sob sob...
Batman
Didn't blog yesterday as i was so tired. Went out with most of the volunteers of the CABIN Club Camp. Had dinner at Fish and Co den went to Esplanade to walk walk.. reached home only at about 11 plus or so... was dead tired...
Went to wacth the movie Batman today.. quite ok i would say...
tomorrow's a rest day for me...
Cheers!
Went to wacth the movie Batman today.. quite ok i would say...
tomorrow's a rest day for me...
Cheers!
Monday, June 20, 2005
The Servant King
I ate the cake that i baked today. It didn't turn out that bad after all. I put a few pieces into a box and i'll be bringing it to camp tomorrow to share it with everyone and those who wants to eat... I'll be meeting up with the volunteers from the cabin club camp also... and i'll share with them also if there's any left...
And will i be known as the cake boy from milo boy?? whahahaha....
anyway, went to changi village with poh liang for lunch. Had chicken rice again. ok larz.. the chix rice there's not too bad.... quite nice actually... den ta-baoed for kenny nasi lemak and drinks.... and i bought biskuits also for myself to eat in camp... 2 packets of 200gms each.. and in a day, i've finsished 100gms.. whahha.. i'm such a pig... and also.. poh liang kena scratched by a cat.. he was playing with it, den the cat went bonkers and scratched him... his hand bled. oww.. must be painful...
anyway, just realised that one of the volunteers who went to the cabin club camp's aj too.. heheh.... we actually knew each other since november last year... haha.. it's such a small world...
Today's song for me....
This is our God, The Servant King,
He calls us now to follow Him.
To bring our lives, As a daily offering,
Of Worship to, The Servant King
And will i be known as the cake boy from milo boy?? whahahaha....
anyway, went to changi village with poh liang for lunch. Had chicken rice again. ok larz.. the chix rice there's not too bad.... quite nice actually... den ta-baoed for kenny nasi lemak and drinks.... and i bought biskuits also for myself to eat in camp... 2 packets of 200gms each.. and in a day, i've finsished 100gms.. whahha.. i'm such a pig... and also.. poh liang kena scratched by a cat.. he was playing with it, den the cat went bonkers and scratched him... his hand bled. oww.. must be painful...
anyway, just realised that one of the volunteers who went to the cabin club camp's aj too.. heheh.... we actually knew each other since november last year... haha.. it's such a small world...
Today's song for me....
This is our God, The Servant King,
He calls us now to follow Him.
To bring our lives, As a daily offering,
Of Worship to, The Servant King
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Sabbath
It's Sabbath again.
I skipped church again today. I had planned to go to NCC's 4th service but had to attend the funeral of the serviceman who drowned.
Nothing much for today. Went to camp, den to mandai, back to camp, and now back home...
Goin to sleep soon.. feeling tired...
Tomorrow's monday. The weekend really flies... And i'm helping out to give out condoms again next saturday at Happy. Anyone wanna go Happy?? ahaha... I'll be there from 11.30pm to 4am...
Cheerio!
I skipped church again today. I had planned to go to NCC's 4th service but had to attend the funeral of the serviceman who drowned.
Nothing much for today. Went to camp, den to mandai, back to camp, and now back home...
Goin to sleep soon.. feeling tired...
Tomorrow's monday. The weekend really flies... And i'm helping out to give out condoms again next saturday at Happy. Anyone wanna go Happy?? ahaha... I'll be there from 11.30pm to 4am...
Cheerio!
Baking a cake
I woke up at about 11.30am. Turned on my computer. Pop-ups of authorization for msn, all from CABIN Club Camp. And very soon, my list would be full again.. haha...
Had bowl noodles and a cup of hot chocolate for lunch. I baked a cake!
Queen cake. But i baked it wrongly... The correct steps...
Stir Butter(250gms) and Sugar(200gms). Add in 4 eggs, one at a time. Add in vanilla essence (1tsp) and baking powder(1tsp). Add in flour(200gms) and rasins (100gms). Den put inside oven to bake.
This was what happened and what i did...
Stir Butter(250gms) and flour(200gms). After realizing my mistake, i added in 3 eggs one at a time as i realized that i had only 3 eggs left in the fridge. 2 mistakes now. Then, added in the sugar (unsure of amount as i was already rather pissed off with myself and i couldn't find the weighing scale and just poured as to what seemed the right amount to me.) Added in vanilla essence(1tsp), baking powder(1tsp) and rasins(100gms) den put inside oven.
The aroma came out... What a nice smell... 25 minutes passed. I took it out.
To my surprise, it was nice... it's almost the same as mixing it with the original receipe. kewl....
So now, i've learnt a different method to bake a cake... yeah!
Met Myron in the evening for dinner. Treated him to ban mian... He's so grown up now. So much taller than me. But still needs lotsa guidance.
Now listening to: Tim Hughes - Here I Am To Worship. I used to listen to this song last time, and got bored of it. but now, i'm liking this song again...
Take care people. Have a good and Blessed Sabbath!
In Him,
Edgar MiRaNtZ Tan
Had bowl noodles and a cup of hot chocolate for lunch. I baked a cake!
Queen cake. But i baked it wrongly... The correct steps...
Stir Butter(250gms) and Sugar(200gms). Add in 4 eggs, one at a time. Add in vanilla essence (1tsp) and baking powder(1tsp). Add in flour(200gms) and rasins (100gms). Den put inside oven to bake.
This was what happened and what i did...
Stir Butter(250gms) and flour(200gms). After realizing my mistake, i added in 3 eggs one at a time as i realized that i had only 3 eggs left in the fridge. 2 mistakes now. Then, added in the sugar (unsure of amount as i was already rather pissed off with myself and i couldn't find the weighing scale and just poured as to what seemed the right amount to me.) Added in vanilla essence(1tsp), baking powder(1tsp) and rasins(100gms) den put inside oven.
The aroma came out... What a nice smell... 25 minutes passed. I took it out.
To my surprise, it was nice... it's almost the same as mixing it with the original receipe. kewl....
So now, i've learnt a different method to bake a cake... yeah!
Met Myron in the evening for dinner. Treated him to ban mian... He's so grown up now. So much taller than me. But still needs lotsa guidance.
Now listening to: Tim Hughes - Here I Am To Worship. I used to listen to this song last time, and got bored of it. but now, i'm liking this song again...
Take care people. Have a good and Blessed Sabbath!
In Him,
Edgar MiRaNtZ Tan
Friday, June 17, 2005
It's Friday!
What comes after Friday? Yes, Saturday and Sunday!
Today has been a quick day. A tiring one too. Just after coming back from leave, i've had to set up refreshments for a meeting, to be ready by 7.45am all by myself... After completeing that, i went to the cookhouse to eat. Another way to save money. It's my usual morning routine in camp. Halfway through breakfast, i received a phone call. It was from Edmuind, the OC clerk. OC wanted to see me.. Went to see him and he said that my store's not in a satisfactory condition and wanted to inspect it again and pack the store together with me. We spent nearly 3 hours packing it and threw away many things including my comfortable armchair. Now, i've not even a single chair in my store. sob sob... And the store's now a big change. It's extremely neat. I've decided to spend monday to wash the store.. hehe...
I met up with my dad and treated him to dinner. Father's day treat for him. I didn't realize that sunday's father's day until my camp mates told me so. And i'm not really looking forward to sunday also. I've to go back to camp. Attached to SOF aka Special Operations Forces for a day, worse still, on a sunday. We'll be heading to Mandai Crematorium for the funeral for the rugular commando who passed away in a training mishap. Sources said that he drowned. Poor him. He looks handsome somemore.. And he's youth... His life's wasted. I hope that he's already been saved. I hope so. That'll be an eye opener actually. Military funeral. Wonder how grand it'll be.
CABIN Club Camp was fun. I had a good time interacting with the teens. And people missed me... rather, my milo.. whahaha... 1st day... Bonding... 2nd games.. i was in orchard mrt for 6 hours... imagine that.. 3rd day, end of camp... i dunno wad to type... actually, lazy larz..
i'm tired and feeling like sleeping liaoz.. haha....
anyway, could you guys tag on my tagboard? i feel so miserable after looking at people's blog and see that so many people tag their blogs and no one tags on mine... sob sob...
Ciaoz & God Bless!
P.S I'll be hosting for my church's fun day again.. hehe...
Today has been a quick day. A tiring one too. Just after coming back from leave, i've had to set up refreshments for a meeting, to be ready by 7.45am all by myself... After completeing that, i went to the cookhouse to eat. Another way to save money. It's my usual morning routine in camp. Halfway through breakfast, i received a phone call. It was from Edmuind, the OC clerk. OC wanted to see me.. Went to see him and he said that my store's not in a satisfactory condition and wanted to inspect it again and pack the store together with me. We spent nearly 3 hours packing it and threw away many things including my comfortable armchair. Now, i've not even a single chair in my store. sob sob... And the store's now a big change. It's extremely neat. I've decided to spend monday to wash the store.. hehe...
I met up with my dad and treated him to dinner. Father's day treat for him. I didn't realize that sunday's father's day until my camp mates told me so. And i'm not really looking forward to sunday also. I've to go back to camp. Attached to SOF aka Special Operations Forces for a day, worse still, on a sunday. We'll be heading to Mandai Crematorium for the funeral for the rugular commando who passed away in a training mishap. Sources said that he drowned. Poor him. He looks handsome somemore.. And he's youth... His life's wasted. I hope that he's already been saved. I hope so. That'll be an eye opener actually. Military funeral. Wonder how grand it'll be.
CABIN Club Camp was fun. I had a good time interacting with the teens. And people missed me... rather, my milo.. whahaha... 1st day... Bonding... 2nd games.. i was in orchard mrt for 6 hours... imagine that.. 3rd day, end of camp... i dunno wad to type... actually, lazy larz..
i'm tired and feeling like sleeping liaoz.. haha....
anyway, could you guys tag on my tagboard? i feel so miserable after looking at people's blog and see that so many people tag their blogs and no one tags on mine... sob sob...
Ciaoz & God Bless!
P.S I'll be hosting for my church's fun day again.. hehe...
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Post CABIN Camp
The CABIN Club's Camp has drawn to an end.
I'm tired. Turning into bed now.
Tell you guys more tomorrow.
Goodnight.
I'm tired. Turning into bed now.
Tell you guys more tomorrow.
Goodnight.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Dental Appointment
I went for my dental checkup over at selarang dental center today.
The dentist said that my teeth was good and he just did some scaling and done all over in the matter of 5 minutes.. My appointment was at 9.30am, I arrived at 9am, number called at 9.10am and was done by 9.15am... I had nothing to do as my off-pass "expires" only at 11am.. so i went to changi village instead... filled my stomach with food.... haha...
Went back to camp... had ration to do. didn't want to do and kenny also asked me to keep all amendments until wednesday.. he's away today so i had to do... but, twas urgent, therefore, i had no choice but to do it.. and oc scolded me for teh bunks... it was untidy... and dirty... well, it wasn't me who did it lorz... always kena arrow.. sigh...
anyway, i'm out of Hendon Camp for the next 3 days... I'll be in another camp. CABIN Club Camp.. hehe.. it's a camp for the secondary school teens... i'll be there as a facilitator... hope there'll be cuties and handsomes there.. hehehe...
will tell you more about the camp when i'm back.. so ya.. no need to check back on my blog for the next 2 days.. check back again on thursday night ba.. haha...
Hallelujah!
The dentist said that my teeth was good and he just did some scaling and done all over in the matter of 5 minutes.. My appointment was at 9.30am, I arrived at 9am, number called at 9.10am and was done by 9.15am... I had nothing to do as my off-pass "expires" only at 11am.. so i went to changi village instead... filled my stomach with food.... haha...
Went back to camp... had ration to do. didn't want to do and kenny also asked me to keep all amendments until wednesday.. he's away today so i had to do... but, twas urgent, therefore, i had no choice but to do it.. and oc scolded me for teh bunks... it was untidy... and dirty... well, it wasn't me who did it lorz... always kena arrow.. sigh...
anyway, i'm out of Hendon Camp for the next 3 days... I'll be in another camp. CABIN Club Camp.. hehe.. it's a camp for the secondary school teens... i'll be there as a facilitator... hope there'll be cuties and handsomes there.. hehehe...
will tell you more about the camp when i'm back.. so ya.. no need to check back on my blog for the next 2 days.. check back again on thursday night ba.. haha...
Hallelujah!
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Sabbath + New Phone
Woke up only at about 11am... Turned on the pc and watched the City Harvest webcast from 11.30am all the way to about 1.15pm.
Then went to meet my friend, Raymond. He's a reformed Beng. That's just so nice... So happy for him.
Went to church as Joe was there and helped him with the video mixing.
Then went to have dinner with my parents over at the coffeeshop behind my block. Ate lots... haha....
And now i've a new phone.. hehe... Nokia 3120... That'll be used for my sms... hehe...
Den now back at home.. am tired so will be sleeping early, i guess.
Now listening to the Album which i bought. Hillsongs + Delirious¿. The song Majesty...
Here i am, humbled by Your Majesty, covered by Your grace so free.
Here i am, knowing i'm a sinful man, covered by the blood of the Lamb.
Now i've found the greatest love of all is mine, since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands.
Majesty, Majesty.
Forever i am changed by Your love, in the presence of Your Majesty
Here i stand humbled by the loave You give, forgiven so that i can forgive.
Here i stand, knowing that i'm Your desire, sanctified by glory and fire.
And now i've found the greatest love of all is mine, since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Then went to meet my friend, Raymond. He's a reformed Beng. That's just so nice... So happy for him.
Went to church as Joe was there and helped him with the video mixing.
Then went to have dinner with my parents over at the coffeeshop behind my block. Ate lots... haha....
And now i've a new phone.. hehe... Nokia 3120... That'll be used for my sms... hehe...
Den now back at home.. am tired so will be sleeping early, i guess.
Now listening to the Album which i bought. Hillsongs + Delirious¿. The song Majesty...
Here i am, humbled by Your Majesty, covered by Your grace so free.
Here i am, knowing i'm a sinful man, covered by the blood of the Lamb.
Now i've found the greatest love of all is mine, since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands.
Majesty, Majesty.
Forever i am changed by Your love, in the presence of Your Majesty
Here i stand humbled by the loave You give, forgiven so that i can forgive.
Here i stand, knowing that i'm Your desire, sanctified by glory and fire.
And now i've found the greatest love of all is mine, since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Great Day!
Today had been a wonderful day.
Went to watch PCK Musical in the afternoon and den went to perform in front of a 3000 strong crowd...
The PCK Musicial was a flop. Wrong location. Singapore Indoor Staidum's too big a place and all the children wasn't very cooperative... there was acoustic feedback througout the whole performace, even after the intermission. my my.. that's bad... for the cast, directors, set deisgners, kudos! they did a perfect job. the music was good. so was the acting. the energy level was there... pronouncation, inouncation, articulation was all there. very well done. but, dun bother going to see it... i was sitting at the $85 seat and the stage was so far away... everyone looked like smurfs on stage....
At night, was good fabulous. Performed in a huge hall with the ministers sitting in front of me.. the PM, SM, MM and DPM's was sitting under my nose... whoa.. that's really very very close... how i loved that moment when i could see them laugh and smile.
All of us broke our legs...
And guys, Tim's grandfather's had a puncture in his heart. Please pray for him, even you dunno who it is, can still pray ritez? i'm not sure if he's already received Christ, but we can pray for His salvation just in case.
Cheers all and Goodnight!
"As for me and my household, we will serve the Lord."
Went to watch PCK Musical in the afternoon and den went to perform in front of a 3000 strong crowd...
The PCK Musicial was a flop. Wrong location. Singapore Indoor Staidum's too big a place and all the children wasn't very cooperative... there was acoustic feedback througout the whole performace, even after the intermission. my my.. that's bad... for the cast, directors, set deisgners, kudos! they did a perfect job. the music was good. so was the acting. the energy level was there... pronouncation, inouncation, articulation was all there. very well done. but, dun bother going to see it... i was sitting at the $85 seat and the stage was so far away... everyone looked like smurfs on stage....
At night, was good fabulous. Performed in a huge hall with the ministers sitting in front of me.. the PM, SM, MM and DPM's was sitting under my nose... whoa.. that's really very very close... how i loved that moment when i could see them laugh and smile.
All of us broke our legs...
And guys, Tim's grandfather's had a puncture in his heart. Please pray for him, even you dunno who it is, can still pray ritez? i'm not sure if he's already received Christ, but we can pray for His salvation just in case.
Cheers all and Goodnight!
"As for me and my household, we will serve the Lord."
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Money In, Money Out
I've just received my NS allowance... S$387 and it's now gone by almost half!
Today was a rather fine day. After camp, i rushed over to suntec... rehearsals for tomorrow's performance...
I'll be performing at tomorrow's CCC 40th Anniversary Dinner organized by the People's Association. Suntec convention halls 601 and 602. that's big... imagine 300 tables and that makes 3000 people in all... Is that the biggest to date that i've performed in??? let me see.. FOC in 2002 was over at Singapore Indoor Stadium and i dunno how big the crowd was... but it was full house... so i guess that was still bigger than this... okie... coming to think of it now, it's boring~~~
But, now it's different. I'm performing alongside with artists.... Patrica Mok(she's pretty off screen and her english was better than i expected), Tony Quek (he still remembers me.. hehe...), Jimmy T (he's so handsome...), Beatrice Chia (not as fabulous as i expected), Koh Cheng Mun (she's the almost the same height as i am, or maybe shorter) and a few others who i dunno the name but common faces... The guest of honor would be Lee Hsien Loong... so very tight secruity checks tomorrow, so wil have to bring IC.. and was enforced to us many times...
and tomorrow i'm going to watch the PCK Musicial... hope it would be nice.... Sponsored Tickets worth $85... and it's good seats.. hehe....
as i was saying... money came in... but it went out as fast as it came in... i bought 2 CD's just now... One is Hillongs & Delirious Live Worship CD and another is The Best Worship Songs Ever... hehe.... Now currently playing the former album... and it's quite nice...
anyway, i'm tired.. blog more tomrrow.. i hope.. tomororw will be a long day again... going to do video editing in church at 8am.. den musicial at 3pm and den off to suntec for the performance at 7pm....
Cheers!
Yawnz~~~
Today was a rather fine day. After camp, i rushed over to suntec... rehearsals for tomorrow's performance...
I'll be performing at tomorrow's CCC 40th Anniversary Dinner organized by the People's Association. Suntec convention halls 601 and 602. that's big... imagine 300 tables and that makes 3000 people in all... Is that the biggest to date that i've performed in??? let me see.. FOC in 2002 was over at Singapore Indoor Stadium and i dunno how big the crowd was... but it was full house... so i guess that was still bigger than this... okie... coming to think of it now, it's boring~~~
But, now it's different. I'm performing alongside with artists.... Patrica Mok(she's pretty off screen and her english was better than i expected), Tony Quek (he still remembers me.. hehe...), Jimmy T (he's so handsome...), Beatrice Chia (not as fabulous as i expected), Koh Cheng Mun (she's the almost the same height as i am, or maybe shorter) and a few others who i dunno the name but common faces... The guest of honor would be Lee Hsien Loong... so very tight secruity checks tomorrow, so wil have to bring IC.. and was enforced to us many times...
and tomorrow i'm going to watch the PCK Musicial... hope it would be nice.... Sponsored Tickets worth $85... and it's good seats.. hehe....
as i was saying... money came in... but it went out as fast as it came in... i bought 2 CD's just now... One is Hillongs & Delirious Live Worship CD and another is The Best Worship Songs Ever... hehe.... Now currently playing the former album... and it's quite nice...
anyway, i'm tired.. blog more tomrrow.. i hope.. tomororw will be a long day again... going to do video editing in church at 8am.. den musicial at 3pm and den off to suntec for the performance at 7pm....
Cheers!
Yawnz~~~
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Steps In Overcoming Masturbation
Today has been quite a ok day... nth much to talk about...
I came across this post in one of my forums.. decided to share it with all of you...
Guys, if you decide to give it a try, do tell me if it works.. just pm me, email me or just tell me... i won't tell it to anyone else..
Cheers!
[START OF QUOTED POST]
A friend a mine who had been a Mormon missionary came across this
"guide," circa 1970, on tattered photocopy. In fact, the pages
were stuck together.
Anyway, we were so amused by it (esp. "Suggestion 19"), I thought
it deserved a wider audience.
STEPS IN OVERCOMING MASTURBATION
Mark E. Petersen
Council of the 12 Apostles
Be assured that you can be cured of your difficulty. Many have been,
both male and female, and you can be also if you determine that it must be so.
This determination is the first step. That is where we begin. You
must decide that you will end this practice, and when you make that decision,
the problem will be greatly reduced at once.
But it must be more than a hope or a whish, more than knowing that it
is good for you. It must be actually a DECISION. If you truly make up your
mind that you will be cured, then you will have the strength to resist any
tendencies which you may have and any temptations which may come to you.
After you have made this decision, then observe the following specific
guidelines:
A Guide to Self-Control:
1. Never touch the intimate parts of your body except during
normal toilet processes.
2. Avoid being alone as much as possible. Find good company
and stay in this good company.
3. If you are associated with other persons having this same
problem, YOU MUST BREAK OFF THEIR FRIENDSHIP. Never
associate with other people having the same weakness. Don't
suppose that two of you will quit together, you never will.
You must get away from people of that kind. Just to be in
their presence will keep your problem foremost in your mind.
The problem must be taken OUT OF YOUR MIND for that is where
it really exists. Your mind must be on other and more
wholesome things.
4. When you bathe, do not admire yourself in a mirror. Never
stay in the bath more than five or six minutes -- just long
enough to bathe and dry and dress AND THEN GET OUT OF THE
BATHROOM into a room where you will have some member of your
family present.
5. When in bed, if that is where you have your problem for the
most part, dress yourself for the night so securely that you
cannot easily touch your vital parts, and so that it would
be difficult and time consuming for you to remove those
clothes. By the time you started to remove protective
clothing you would have sufficiently controlled your
thinking that the temptation would leave you.
6. If the temptation seems overpowering while you are in bed,
GET OUT OF BED AND GO INTO THE KITCHEN AND FIX YOURSELF A
SNACK, even if it is in the middle of the night, and even if
you are not hungry, and despite your fears of gaining
weight. The purpose behind this suggestion is that you GET
YOUR MIND ON SOMETHING ELSE. You are the subject of your
thoughts, so to speak.
7. Never read pornographic material. Never read about your
problem. Keep it out of mind. Remember -- "First a
thought, then an act."
The thought pattern must be changed. You must not
allow this problem to remain in your mid. When you
accomplish that, you soon will be free of the act.
8. Put wholesome thoughts into your mind at all times. Read
good books -- Church books -- Scriptures -- Sermons of the
Brethern [sic, Cistern too?]. Make a daily habit of reading
at least one chapter of Scripture, preferably from one of the
four Gospels in the New Testament, or the Book of Mormon. The
four Gospels -- Matthew, Mark, Luke and John -- above
anything else in the Bible can be helpful because of their
uplifting qualities.
9. Pray. But when you pray, don't pray about this problem, for
that will tend to keep [it] in your mind more than ever. Pray
for faith, pray for understanding of the Scriptures, pray
for the Missionaries, the General Authorities, your friends,
your families, BUT KEEP THE PROBLEM OUT OF YOUR MIND BY NOT
MENTIONING IT EVER -- NOT IN CONVERSATION WITH OTHERS, NOT
IN YOUR PRAYERS. KEEP IT _OUT_ of your mind!
The attitude of a person toward his problem has an affect [sic] on how
easy it is to overcome. It is essential that a firm commitment be made to
control the habit. As a person understands his reasons for the behavior, and
is sensitive to the conditions or situations that may trigger a desire for the
act, he develops the power to control it.
We are taught that our bodies are temples of God, and are to be clean
so that the Holy Ghost may dwell within us. Masturbation is a sinful habit
that robs one of the Spirit and creates guilt and emotional stress. It is not
physically harmful unless practiced in the extreme. It is a habit that is
totally self-centered, and secretive, and in no way expresses the proper use of
the procreative power given to man to fulfill eternal purposes. It therefore
separates a person from God and defeats the gospel plan.
This self-gratifying activity will cause one to lose his self-respect
testimony becomes weak, and missionary work and other Church callings become
burdensome, offerins.
To help in planning an effective program to overcome the problem a
brieation is given of how the reproductive organs in a young man function.
The testes in your body are continually producing hundreds of millions
of reproductive cells call _spermatozoa_. These are moved up a tube called the
_vas deferens_ to a place called the _ampulla_ where they are mixed with fluids
from two membranous pouches called _seminal vesicles_ and the _prostate gland_.
The resultant fluid is calleeminal vesicles are full a signa to the _central
nervous system_ indicating they are ready to benother, depending on such
thingsexercise, state of health, etc. everal times a week, for others
It is normal for the vesicles to be emptied occasionally at night
durise the emptying come from the cetral nervous system. Often an erotic dream
is experienced at the same time, and is a part of this normal process. nstead
ourse, the reproductive system is operating at a more rapid pace, trying to
keep up with the loss of semen. When he stops the habit, the body will
continue to produce ahis increased rate, for an indefese are not harmful and
are to be endured until the normal central nervous system pathway of rel
During this period of control several things can be done to make the pr
As one meets with his Priesthood Leader, a program for overcoming
masturbation can be implemented using some of t Remember it is essential that a
regur report program be agreed on, so progress can be recognized and failures
understood and eliminated.
Suggestions:
1. Pray daily, ask for the gifts of the Spirit, that which will
strengthen you against temptation. Pray fervently and out
lout when the temptations are the strongest.
2. Follow a program of vigorous daily exercise. The exercises
reduce emotional tension and depression and are absolutely
basic to the solution of this problem. Double your physical
activity when you feel stress increasing.
3. When the temptation to masturbate is strong, yell _STOP_ to
those thoughts as loudly as you can in your mind and then
recite a prechosen Scripture or sing an inspirational hymn.
It is important to turn your thoughts away from the selfish
need to indulge.
4. Set goals of abstinence, begin with a day, then a week,
month, year and finally commit to never doing it again.
Until you commit yourself to _never again_ you will always be
open to temptation.
5. Change in behavior and attitude is most easily achieved
through a changed self-image. Spend time every day
imagining yourself strong and in control, easily overcoming
tempting situations.
6. Begin to work daily on a self-improvement program. Relate
this plan to improving your Church service, to improving your
relationships with your family, God and others. Strive to
enhance your strengths and talents.
7. Be outgoing and friendly. Force yourself to be with others
and learn to enjoy working and talking to them. Use
principles of developing friendships found in books such as
_How to Win Friends and Influence People_ by Dale Carnegie.
8. Be aware of situations that depress you or that cause you to
feel lonely, bored, frustrated or discouraged. These
emotional states can trigger the desire to masturbate as a
way of escape. Plan in advance to counter these low periods
through various activities, such as reading a book, visiting
a friend, doing something athletic, etc.
9. Make a pocket calendar for a month on a small card. Carry
it with you, but show it to no one. If you have a lapse of
self control, color the day black. Your goal will be to
have _no black days_. The calendar becomes a strong visual
reminder of self control and should be looked at when you
are tempted to add another black day. Keep your calendar up
until you have at least three clear months.
10. A careful study will indicate you have had the problem at
certain times and under certain conditions. Try and recall,
in detail, what your particular times and conditions were.
Now that you understand how it happens, plan to break the
pattern through counter activities.
11. In the field of psychotherapy there is a very effective
technique called _aversion therapy_. When we associate
or think of something very distasteful with something which has
been pleasurable, but undesirable, the distasteful thought
and feeling will begin to cancel out that which was
pleasurable. If you associate something very distasteful
with your loss of self-control it will help you to stop the
act. For example, if you are tempted to masturbate, think
of having to bathe in a tub of worms, and eat several of
them as you do the act.
12. During your toileting and shower activities leave the
bathroom door or shower curtain partly open, to discourage
being alone in total privacy. Take cool brief showers.
13. Arise immediately in the mornings. Do not lie in bed awake,
no matter what time of day it is. Get up and do something.
Start each day with an enthusiastic activity.
14. Keep your bladder empty. Refrain from drinking large
amounts of fluids before retiring.
15. Reduce the amount of spices and condiments in your food.
Eat as lightly as possible at night.
16. Wear pajamas that are difficult to open, yet loose and
not binding.
17. Avoid people, situations, pictures or reading materials that
might create sexual excitement.
18. It is sometimes helpful to have a physical object to use
in overcoming this problem. A Book of Mormon, firmly held in
hand, even in bed at night has proven helpful in extreme
cases.
19. In very severe cases it may be necessary to tie a hand to
the bed frame with a tie in order that the habit of
masturbating in a semi-sleep condition can be broken. This
can also be accomplished by wearing several layers of
clothing which would be difficult to remove while half
asleep.
20. Set up a reward system for your successes. It does not have
to be a big reward. A quarter in a receptacle each time you
overcome or reach a goal. Spend it on something which
delights you and will be a continuing reminder of your
progress.
21. Do not let yourself return to any past habit or attitude
patterns which were part of your problem. _Satan Never Gives
Up_. Be calmly and confidently on guard. Keep a positive
mental attitude. You can win this fight! The joy and
strength you will feel when you do will give your whole life
a radiant and spiritual glow of satisfaction and fulfillment.
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Tired
I'm tired again... dunno why.. even though i've been slacking in the bunk after like 12 noon... nth much 4 today... nth 2 tok abt. just tat i had bfast 2day wif pL. and den no lunch today and had a big dinner wif my mum.
anyway, the bed's calling me...
Nitez...
anyway, the bed's calling me...
Nitez...
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
F.I.R Tickets up for graps!
Today has been a relaxed day. All thanks to the cancellation of Party 5.
Did nothing much in camp in the morning and in the afternoon, went to shift my OC's safe from the old office to the new office.. Boy, it took us more than an hour and 6 persons and our CSM to shift it... Imagine how heavy and big it is... Well, it's not big, but it's very heavy.
Thank you for your participation in SingNet's F.I.R Contest!
You have won for yourself a pair of tickets to the exclusive F.I.R showcase at IMM on 12 June 2005, 4pm.
But the thing is that i'm not interested in it... So i'm giving the pair of tickets away. If you're interested, please give me a call on my mobile. Before doing that, please ensure that you are able to attend it. I do not want the tickets to go to waste. Others can benefit from it... Get what i mean?
I'm still feeling moody. Not sure why. Maybe it's because i'm just lonely. I need a partner.
Ryan and Joel had a quarrel. That's sad. Why so childish? Hope it'll just blow over.
Ryan's upset and it saddens me to see him upset.
Dear God, Ryan's upset. Please cheer him up. Lord, Bless him and his family as well as those whom he comes in contact with. Lord, i pray that you'll use him as a blessing to others. Lord, i pray for the community. People need the You. My friends need You. I need You. I pray for those whom doesn't know You that one day, they'll get to know Your almighty powers and what You can do their lives. Holy Spirit, enter the lives of men. Enter into the lives of those who has not known you. Touch them Holy Spirit. You have said, those who are weary to come to You. Jesus, lead them to You. Make me a servant. I wanna serve you. Thank you Father for all my friends. Thank you for Ryan, Natty, Joel, Ally and lots more. I also thank you for Poh Liang, Terry and Kenny. I'm sure that You've put them in place where you want them to belong. I ask that Lord you will Empower them and fill them until their cup overflows. Lord, i'm lonely. I need a partner. I pray and ask that You will get me the right partner, the one that You desire to be with me. I do not ask for more Lord. Lead me and i'll follow. I will try my utmost best to trust and obey. Holy Spirit, i pray that you will guide me in the Father's path and that God, You will give me whatever You want me to get. I ask and pray of all these, in the name of my dear Jesus, the one who died to pay for my sins. Amen.
It's time to sleep. Finally an early night.
Goodnight all. Wish me luck.
Did nothing much in camp in the morning and in the afternoon, went to shift my OC's safe from the old office to the new office.. Boy, it took us more than an hour and 6 persons and our CSM to shift it... Imagine how heavy and big it is... Well, it's not big, but it's very heavy.
CONGRATULATIONS!
Thank you for your participation in SingNet's F.I.R Contest!
You have won for yourself a pair of tickets to the exclusive F.I.R showcase at IMM on 12 June 2005, 4pm.
But the thing is that i'm not interested in it... So i'm giving the pair of tickets away. If you're interested, please give me a call on my mobile. Before doing that, please ensure that you are able to attend it. I do not want the tickets to go to waste. Others can benefit from it... Get what i mean?
I'm still feeling moody. Not sure why. Maybe it's because i'm just lonely. I need a partner.
Ryan and Joel had a quarrel. That's sad. Why so childish? Hope it'll just blow over.
Ryan's upset and it saddens me to see him upset.
Dear God, Ryan's upset. Please cheer him up. Lord, Bless him and his family as well as those whom he comes in contact with. Lord, i pray that you'll use him as a blessing to others. Lord, i pray for the community. People need the You. My friends need You. I need You. I pray for those whom doesn't know You that one day, they'll get to know Your almighty powers and what You can do their lives. Holy Spirit, enter the lives of men. Enter into the lives of those who has not known you. Touch them Holy Spirit. You have said, those who are weary to come to You. Jesus, lead them to You. Make me a servant. I wanna serve you. Thank you Father for all my friends. Thank you for Ryan, Natty, Joel, Ally and lots more. I also thank you for Poh Liang, Terry and Kenny. I'm sure that You've put them in place where you want them to belong. I ask that Lord you will Empower them and fill them until their cup overflows. Lord, i'm lonely. I need a partner. I pray and ask that You will get me the right partner, the one that You desire to be with me. I do not ask for more Lord. Lead me and i'll follow. I will try my utmost best to trust and obey. Holy Spirit, i pray that you will guide me in the Father's path and that God, You will give me whatever You want me to get. I ask and pray of all these, in the name of my dear Jesus, the one who died to pay for my sins. Amen.
It's time to sleep. Finally an early night.
Goodnight all. Wish me luck.
Monday, June 06, 2005
PMS
I'm having my PMS today. Dunno why... but just feeling stoned.
Woke up late and didn't go to church again. instead, was watching the live webcast of City Harvest's service..
den i left for ryan's house.. and when i arrived, he wasn't at home and he was with joel over at compass point.. made a wasted trip.... so i left for the office.
at the office, was also stoned. did some planning until kiwi came. ryan and joel was late... joel left his bag at ryan's house...
kiwi did dance with all the talent trainees. the talent trainees were good. they picked up almost the whole dance song in just 2 sessions! amazing. joel was better still. he picked up half the dance in a session and was one of the best inside the classroom. that's called having the basics of dance.
had dinner with kiwi, joel, ryan, natt and steph at hougang mall and den went hme...
until now, i'm still not my usual self. my thoughts are very disorganized and i'm very luan.
sleeep time. Nitez guys.
Goodnight Daddy God!
Woke up late and didn't go to church again. instead, was watching the live webcast of City Harvest's service..
den i left for ryan's house.. and when i arrived, he wasn't at home and he was with joel over at compass point.. made a wasted trip.... so i left for the office.
at the office, was also stoned. did some planning until kiwi came. ryan and joel was late... joel left his bag at ryan's house...
kiwi did dance with all the talent trainees. the talent trainees were good. they picked up almost the whole dance song in just 2 sessions! amazing. joel was better still. he picked up half the dance in a session and was one of the best inside the classroom. that's called having the basics of dance.
had dinner with kiwi, joel, ryan, natt and steph at hougang mall and den went hme...
until now, i'm still not my usual self. my thoughts are very disorganized and i'm very luan.
sleeep time. Nitez guys.
Goodnight Daddy God!
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Party 5 Cancelled
Party 5's Cancelled.
Wilson, our ops manager was asked to leave by Joe... Twas kinda tough decision to make as i had lotsa things in my mind and all that.
but at least, one load's gone...
clement's handsome... 2 bad he's straight. he came to my house 1day and i passed him some of my magic tricks... he showed me some of his and i was impressed. wish he was gay.. well, maybe i can get him 2 b a bi.. haha.... well, like wad joel said, who knows? i believe i can if i try... maybe just a oral job for him and he'll turn into a bi?? haha... oops... i'm so bad.. not supposed to have sex unless i have a partner... i must continue to be a non-practising gay...
God, Thank you 4 2day... i love You God!
and i'm tired. going to sleep now...
Nitez all~~~
Wilson, our ops manager was asked to leave by Joe... Twas kinda tough decision to make as i had lotsa things in my mind and all that.
but at least, one load's gone...
clement's handsome... 2 bad he's straight. he came to my house 1day and i passed him some of my magic tricks... he showed me some of his and i was impressed. wish he was gay.. well, maybe i can get him 2 b a bi.. haha.... well, like wad joel said, who knows? i believe i can if i try... maybe just a oral job for him and he'll turn into a bi?? haha... oops... i'm so bad.. not supposed to have sex unless i have a partner... i must continue to be a non-practising gay...
God, Thank you 4 2day... i love You God!
and i'm tired. going to sleep now...
Nitez all~~~
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord, “You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied, “The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you.”
--
This poem reminded me of the Lord when he's always been carrying me in times when i've been through everything. Through it all. He has helped me.
I'm single and i'm lonely. Why do i look to humanly figures? Why do i not look to God instead? Isn't the Lord calling me? He is. The Holy Spirit is leading the way. But, sadly, i'm not following. Why is this so?
We all dwell on the earthly riches. Have we forgotten about the riches that the Lord our God has in store for us in Heaven? He's waiting for me in open arms... I'm ashamed to look at Him.
Why do we humans fail in some of the things that we do? I suppose it's because we do not pray nor do we listen to what he says. Life can be very hectic. But do we spend just a few minutes with Him?
I was very heart broken last night. After switching off my pc, i laid down on my bed. I felt so much like crying. i had lost the other half of my heart. The person who took it away isn't going to return my heart back to me anymore. Nor can i have his heart to fill it in my place. God touched me. I prayed to the Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit, Cover me. Lead me, Guide me, Use me, Mould me. I've fallen short from the glory of God. I need God badly in my life. Even if i have his heart or he returns me my heart, it would still be empty... It's not empty, but, to a certain extent, i do not see why it's full. The Holy Spirit is there but i'm not seeing him. I'm not paying attention to it, therefore, i deem it as the empty space.
All of us need God. The Father, Son and the Holy Spirit. Are you still pulling back? Are we doing things according to our own will? Are we depending on God? Are we consulting God? Are we listening to him? Are we even giving him the precious time to communicate with us? Are we having communion with God?
Jesus, Come into my Life once again. I need You. I want to spend time with You. I want to cherish every moment with You. Lord, i have chucked you aside for a long time. I've not been consulting you. I've been doing things on my own will and not praying and waiting for your answer.
I'm sorry Father Lord. I gladly and proudly call you My Daddy God. My Father God.
I LOVE YOU DADDY GOD! I LOVE YOU ABBA FATHER!
I'm Blessed. And so are you, who is reading this blog now. No matter what your religion is, MY DADDY GOD LOVES YOU!
Blessed!
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord, “You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied, “The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you.”
--
This poem reminded me of the Lord when he's always been carrying me in times when i've been through everything. Through it all. He has helped me.
I'm single and i'm lonely. Why do i look to humanly figures? Why do i not look to God instead? Isn't the Lord calling me? He is. The Holy Spirit is leading the way. But, sadly, i'm not following. Why is this so?
We all dwell on the earthly riches. Have we forgotten about the riches that the Lord our God has in store for us in Heaven? He's waiting for me in open arms... I'm ashamed to look at Him.
Why do we humans fail in some of the things that we do? I suppose it's because we do not pray nor do we listen to what he says. Life can be very hectic. But do we spend just a few minutes with Him?
I was very heart broken last night. After switching off my pc, i laid down on my bed. I felt so much like crying. i had lost the other half of my heart. The person who took it away isn't going to return my heart back to me anymore. Nor can i have his heart to fill it in my place. God touched me. I prayed to the Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit, Cover me. Lead me, Guide me, Use me, Mould me. I've fallen short from the glory of God. I need God badly in my life. Even if i have his heart or he returns me my heart, it would still be empty... It's not empty, but, to a certain extent, i do not see why it's full. The Holy Spirit is there but i'm not seeing him. I'm not paying attention to it, therefore, i deem it as the empty space.
All of us need God. The Father, Son and the Holy Spirit. Are you still pulling back? Are we doing things according to our own will? Are we depending on God? Are we consulting God? Are we listening to him? Are we even giving him the precious time to communicate with us? Are we having communion with God?
Jesus, Come into my Life once again. I need You. I want to spend time with You. I want to cherish every moment with You. Lord, i have chucked you aside for a long time. I've not been consulting you. I've been doing things on my own will and not praying and waiting for your answer.
I'm sorry Father Lord. I gladly and proudly call you My Daddy God. My Father God.
I LOVE YOU DADDY GOD! I LOVE YOU ABBA FATHER!
I'm Blessed. And so are you, who is reading this blog now. No matter what your religion is, MY DADDY GOD LOVES YOU!
Blessed!
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