Chevrons

Nothing much today. Sweat last night at Happy. Gina, one of our female volunteers went missing. Hunted for her. Couldn't find her. Found out this morning that she was sleeping at the rooftop till 6am.

Went to church for the 30th anniversary celebration. Service ended and went to meet one of my new friend. I can't mention his name as i have to protect his identity. It's rather sensative. By saying his name, i forsee a big storm brewing causing a havock. While he had his lunch, i had milkshake as i was already full, thanks to my church for feeding me.. haha...

Went home and slept as i was very exhausted. However, i couldn't sleep well - i couldn't have an uninterrupted sleep. That's what i dislike the most. An Interrupted Sleep.

Met up with Alex and we went together to Jared's chalet @ Chevrons. Nothing much. Nearly got lost though. haha... Well, my GPS was working, just that i was misled. haha... Chatted with him and discussed about his internship opportunity in my company. He'll get back to me and if he does have his internship in my company, i'll have to start generating projects. Have to be working extra hard and thereafter plan my financial budget le.

Is this a good or bad thing? When i'm out with Alex now, at least i dun feel as though as we're a couple. I don't have the feeling of missing him anymore and i do not feel like wanting him asmy other half. It's just a liking that's still lingering. Why? I do not know. I guess that i'm no longer love-sick and that's a good sign i would say. But still when i do meet him, i feel good. It's better to stay as friends than being as partners and after breaking up, being strangers.

Time to sleep soon. It's been a long day and tomorrow will be another long day. I'll have to rush so many things. Well, life's like that, what can we do?

And ya, the song playing now, is written by my church member, Bridget Goh. She wrote the song initially for her mission trip last year and i did a recording for her cd in which she brought it over to Philippines. I'm so honored to be one of the first persons who supported her. And now in the album, it's being sang by my god-ma, Jingle.

Your Will Be Done

Lord, will You show me the way
Guide me this day
To understand Your purpose
I Come before You and pray
Let me not stray
From walking in Your presence
I'm so afriad to lose my faith
In You my Lord my Maker
Give me strength to overcome this
It's You I want to please

And I will trust in the Lord
Lean not on my own understanding
In all of my ways, acknowledge Him
Let Your will be done in my life
Let Your will be done in my life

Lord, will You use me this day
I'll do as You say
Come take away my fears
I know, it's You that will reign
You're always the same
Your promises are true
I give to You my hopes and dreams
Will You use me for Your glory
I surrender all that I am
Proclaim that You are King

Faithful by BPMC - Released

After awaiting for almost 3 years for an audio CD, it's finally out! Entitled Faithful, A Tribute to a Faithful God, this CD is recorded in Singapore and features 13 popular praise and worship songs and hymns, resung by BPMC members as well as a live recording of Great Is Thy Faithfulness by the church congregation. A new song, written by Bridgett Goh, Your Will Be Done is also included.

This CD is sold only in BPMC and those who wishes to purchase it may email info@bpmc.info.

Executive Producer and Copyright by Bethesda Pasir-Ris Mission Church, 2006.

Interview

Went to MCYS today for an interview. I volunteered to be a Volunteer Probation Officer.

The officers were friendly and i was in there for almost half and hour, throwing questions back and forth. All volunteers are required to take up 1 case = 1 person, Case Management. Should be able to commit for a long term basis. Probation period = from 6 to 36 months. Must make contact with client at least 4 times a month, 2 of which must be face to face, anywhere. Sounds fun and interesting.

They'll let me know the outcome of the interview in 2 weeks time if i'm successful and i'll be on a 10 hour course starting on the 26th of august and thereafter, i'm to manage a case le.

Nothing much for now. Taxi fares has risen and it's not a laughing matter. The weekend's coming le... I'll be packed this saturday. Buffet Tim Sum @ Tung Lok East Coast Park for lunch at noon and then to OC's training and thereafter to a meeting. Sweat @ nite. And i can't escape church the next day coz it's my church's 30th anniversary. So i'll just guai guai go back. haha....

Anyone wanna come with me to my church this sunday? I've asked Alex, but dunno if he's confirmed a not... Any others???

And before i close, a picture of a cute bear with it's head stuck in a computer. Nah - it's actually a USB bear. a thumbdrive la... haha...

Time 2 sleep. Goodnites.

Nothing much

Nothing much to write about these days. No happenings in my life. Just normal routine stuffs. Eat, sleep, shit.

Unable to fix the blinds in my office. Not professional enough to be a handyman.

Will apply for Diploma in Nursing in Decmeber at Ngee Ann Poly. Chances of me getting in are slim though.

Nitez.

OC Interview

Nothing much today again. Boss having stiff neck again. Think he didn't sleep properly. Somemore blame me for always blowing the aircon at him. I'm accused. Den he went ma guang to have cups placed on him. haha... and came back WITHOUT the smelly koh-yo.

Went to Ooga Chaga for an interview with Bryan and found out more about them. Not very taxing their phone duty. an average of twice per month.

Nothing much to blog about. I'm considering if i should take an intern for my company... hehe...

Cheers!

Superman Returns

Went to watch Superman Returns this evening. Ok la... didn't fall asleep. And Alex was there to keep me warm.. haha...

Nothing much to blog about today. Had lunch with my dad at Qiji at Beach Towers. Realised that Lennel's working there as well. We could have lunch or dinner one day together.

I might should happy, but i'm still in a state of loss.

Cheerios!

Milkshake

Nothing much today. Went to work as usual. Boss was feeling sick today after his Thailand trip. It's always like that when he travels overseas. Maybe he shouldn't even travel. Only Malaysia - across the causeway, so by land, no sea. haha...

Had prok porridge from Rochor market for lunch. so-so only la... not really that great and that lady selling it to me sounded like as though as her porridge is soo goood until i will want to go back to buy more like that. Well, i tell u, i wun ever go back, unless dom's sick or i'm sick den need to eat porridge lorz... Oh my.. i'm so bad. okie, i take back my words...

Went out with Tim at nite. Was supposed to go to TCC for a drink so i borrowed Dom's card but in the end, went to Billy Bombers instead. I had potato salad and cookies and cream shake. I'm feeling so guilty now, but the shake was real good though. haha... oh btw, Tim was my ex. My 2nd one in fact. My first was Darren, his brother Derrick (not a PLU) is still my good friend and we go out once in a while.

Will be going to watch Superman Returns tomorrow with Alex. Boss was commenting along the line of: Why still Alex??? Well, can't I still not go out with him even though we're not dating? Just how gay is superman? I'll find out myself tomorrow. haha...

Now, looking at my mIRC screen, there's this channel, #myplace, it's full of activities now. It was so dead just moments ago. All the memories i had while i was (and still am) in there last time. That was the very first "family" channel i joined ever since i came out, not openly though, apart from sgboy. I still remember that Samuel was the one who actually invited me over. I still see Samuel now a days over at Attica as he's actually part of the Super Sunday Party team.

Maybe, i should just have a post one day on me, my life and I. Everthing about me since i was young and all the way till now. How i came out and how i realised that i was a gay and until now, being open and out and proud about it.

Time for bed. Goodnight peeps!

Casting Call

Wanted: Boys and Girls who looks 13 to 17. The pair will be needed for a photoshoot a new portal, to be started off as a forum for teens and relationships.

If you think you fit that category, email talents@film5.org.

And i've been fine. Thanks for all the concern still pouring in. We're close friends now - to me. To him, i dunno. At least now i know that i wun be left alone if i ever get drunk. haha..

Will be watching Superman on wednesday. Just how gay is superman huh?

Cheers and God Bless!

Happy Birthday Alex & Alcohol

I was awake for 22 hours. I woke up on saturday morning at 10am and i slept only this morning at 8am or even later.

Went out to collect my new specs - the one with the white frame. It makes me look different. And now with my high-lighted hair, relly different! Met up with alex in the bus and went to collect his birthday cake at mohd sultan. The cake's really nice, but costly. S$78 for 1kg. Put the cake at Miss Clarity's Cafe and slacked around at bugis - with nothing to do. I had an enjoyable time with him.

Met up with all his other friends and we went to the cafe for dinner. I had an oxtail stew with pasta. It was rather nice. Wasn't as bad as the other dishes i tried the last time.At least, now my perception of the cafe is - average. It used to be poor. haa...

Alex had to leave once he finished his dinner as some matters cropped up. I could tell that he was upset about about it, but nevertheless, he got a cab and departed us while we went over to TCC Beach Center to chill out. I believe that last night was a nite that i prayed the most - other than prayer and fast as well as prayer day/nite. I prayed for him.

We met up again at Maxwell and headed to whyNot for his celebration. I didn't drink much. Only 10mls of alcohol or less. I had oolong tea the rest of the night which i bought from a nearby 7-11 at two 500mls bottles for S$1.90. Cheapskate me. Well, just that i do not like alchohol. He cut the cake and said a silent wish and blew the candle, not before someone else did before him and it had to be lighted up again. I could tell that he was happy and he himslf told me that he was very happy. I was happy myself too for him.

But that didn't last long. He drank a little too much and got himself drunk. Perched on the floor along the roadside, thankfully with his friend to accompany him. How lucky he is to have such caring friends. I wonder if i ever get drunk (which i believe wun ever happen coz i wun want to touch alcohol) who will actually come to my aid. I don't think anyone would ever care - well, maybe i would find myself in the police station or the hosptial when i wake up. haha...

I brought him home in cab. Thanks to technology i could pay the fare via mastercard. haha... I got him to balance himself before "carrying" him up to his flat. And he wasn't even to walk in a straight line, let alone climbing up the stairs. After we got up, which took a while, the gate was locked inside. Poor him, no home to go to, but lukcy for him , there were chairs outside and he sat, or rather lied there. He told me to leave him there at that state and go home. But looking at him at the state, i just could get myself to leave him alone. It's not out of pity or what. Just that i could bear to leave him. There were hazards around. With the state that he was in, he could just swayed to the left, right and hit his head and get himself injured. I left him sleeping and my eyes was glued to him. Making sure that he didn't sway too much and when he swayed a little too much, i would just guide him center again. And yes, he reeked of alcohol. haha... I saw day breaking. His door opened and i asked him to go home, but i guess he wass still too tired and there was still too much alcohol in his blood. I stayed by his side for a little until he regained consciousness. He was feeling much better than i could tell. He went home while left him for home as well. I was dead tired. How i wished i could have slept in church which was just a few streets away.

I dragged myself home and after my bath, i poinked into bed until i woke up at 6pm just now. I was feeling so restless and sianz. My dad on earth bought me dinner and i consumed it. I played the piano and i was so touched by the song which i played over and over again - Lord of the Sunshine. I remember singing that song when i was in sunday school when the church was still in bedok, in BBMH (Bethesda Bedok Mission Home).

Well, i guess everything would be back to normal tomorrow. Life would continue. Back to work. Alex will be designing for me my new coporate logo for Film Five Management Limited. I'm so pround of that - a new logo and i would be able to print new namecards for myself again. I'm in the mood now for starting to venture into events again and this time, into malaysia. I could work with Banda Utama Church there and work out an event for their chrismas concert in 2007 and i could setup my own musical with GRACE talent management, in collaboration with Film Five Management. I miss the feeling of putting up my own christmas musical like what i did last year - a 50 minute musical. I hope i would be able to put up one next year - an in-house production.

Wish me luck.

And btw, thanks all for your kind messages, sms, after reading my last post. It's very much appreciated. Just an update, everything's fine now - Thanks to our Almighty God above! We're friends now and of coz i still like him. As to suggetions for me to date him, well i'll just see how it goes. I dunno how it'll turn out. I do not wish to hurt myself any further. I love it now. Just being able to spend time with him being happy.

With His Blessings.

=)

Heartbroken 'N' c0nFuSeD

I'm at home. I felt so much like blogging when i was at blue heaven just now.

By now, you guys should know that i go to blue heaven. And if you read along the lines in my blog, you should know that i have my eyes set on this particular guy and no one else.

I met him yesterday for a movie and today, to go to blue heaven. When we went it all was fine. We went into the jacuzzi and all that. We even went into the steam room and private room together. Nothing happened. No sexual acts between us. Yes, i admit that sometimes i may seem brave, but i'm always timid and i'm one that don't usually take the initiative. One may consider that i'm a little reserved and conservative at times. He set his eyes on this guy in the pool and after leaving the private rooms, he wanted to look for the cute guy. Whatever for, you should know. I was so heart-broken then. Imagine the guy you like, wanting to have "whatever" with someone else.

I waited and waited. I used the computer to distract myself. Nah, not porn but just SGBOY. It had already passed 30 mins (or even more i suppose) and it seemed like an eternity to me. Alas, i saw him. We left blue heaven. I asked him, so how? had fun and he replied that he couldn't find that guy.

Oh well, of course, i felt kinda relieved. But still, i'm feeling hurt. Hurt? Very Hurt? Hurt? Very Hurt? i just dunno. I'm confused. I like him and i really do, but how would i know what his feelings to me are? Are we friends or are we more than that? Have i misinterpreted? Did i take his nice gesture and goodness to me as a wrong signal? Maybe he justs treats all his close friends like that? I'm just confused and it's affecting me. I feel so upset. I just feel like hugging him right now. I feel like crying. Well, yes i am crying, or rather tearing - my eyes are wet.

Why did i have to love him in the first place? Because i'm emotionally weak? Would tonight break our relationship as friends? Would this incident draw us nearer and nearer? I wish it would. But i'm just so afriad of it back-firing. I'm a weakling. I'm just a loser, i guess.

It's his birthday this sunday and i haven't bought him his gift yet. Although i've already thought of what to buy for him. I'm just so so hurt. God, Help me!

This blog is so nice to me. It doesn't bite back. I can just type and type and type and go on... It lets me vent my anger, my hurt, my sorrow and all the shit in me.

Cannot sleep; cry myself to sleep. Just another loser on earth.

Cooked Brains

I nearly got my brain cooked today. Rush off from work to my hair salon to have my hair highlighted.

Took about 1.30mins to get my hair done up. And now i can't wash my hair till tomorrow morning. I'm now lacking my new specs... Not sure if i'll have the time to collect it tomorrow, else i'll have to collect it on saturday.

Most prob i'll post pics of my new look soon.

Cheers and God Bless!

Church & Sleep

Went to church @ FCC yesterday. My first time there. It's just a small hall, situated at Yangze Building. In case you dunno where that is, it's the building where the cinema screening all the R(A) shows, where all the dirty old man are, most prob the only place where they can relieve their sexual tensions as they don't know how to use the computer and have no knowledge of this technology known as the internet. I walked wondering how to get to the church. I walked towards the cinema and i had many eyes (from you-know-who) staring at me. Thank goodness, i saw the roll up banner of the church and i went it. From the glass door, you can could see the stage. It wasn't really a stage as it had no raised platform or whatsoever, but it's just a designated space. There wasn't even a rostrum or a pulpit. The speaker's was just speaking from behind a music stand with a cloth draped over it. From the front, you could actually be fooled by it. But, i kinda like it as it breaks the barrier from the speaker and the audience. Total attendance was only about 60 at most and i could only spot the maximum of 4 women. Coffee was served free flow. It's quite a nice church to be in, as it's a small church whereby everyone can support each other. The service was short - about 1.30 hours and it ended nearly on time. The sermon was short too, unlike some church's i've attended. They're having their FCC Retreat sometime next month. The worship leader, Pastor Gary Chan, had just came back from the Hillsongs Conference the day before, on Saturday and he said that it was very good. I think i should sign up for it also next year or the following.

After the service, i went over to meet up with my mum at her cellgroup over at pasir ris. Was there until it ended and then fellowship. People was asking where i was and why they haven't been seeing me in church for the past few months. I simply told them that would church visiting and that i would still return. BPMC's still my home church. Thereafter, i went back home. I just felt so sleepy and tired. Didn't stay online for long. I slept, as far much as i could remember, at about 8pm, and didn't wake up till this morning. And i was still feeling sleepy - i didn't even want to get out of bed.

I had to drag myself out of bed, as usual. Went to work and had company breakfast. Toast and Tea. Didn't eat lunch as i was fasting. Day 1 of fasting sucessful.

I went to my hairdresser - the 2 young malay girls, no older than 30 years old, both holing degrees from overseas in hairdressing who runs a shop on their own at bedok central - Vibes Hairdressing, to find out more about highlighting my hair and made an appointment.

I'll be doing up my hair tomorrow evening at 7pm. Hope it's be a success and not a disaster. A new look for me. And i'll most prob. be collecting my new specs, the one with the white frame this weekend. A new me. Dominic was suggesting that i dyed my hair red - coz it's Trevvy's color.. haha...

And I've got an idea on what i can get for Alex for his birthday this coming sunday. I shall not reveal it here in case he reads my blog. I just know that my readership is high but i dun track it. Do a google search for mirantz and my blog pops out in the 1st position. I'm so proud of that.

Okie.. time for me to sleep. Goodnight people and God Bless.

Virtual Church

Woke up only at about noon today. Did nothing much. Played piano - chords only. Went online - nothing much either.

Tidied up my table, but it's still very messy and untidy - what's the use? back 2 square one...

Saw alex online and chatted with him. Might go watch Ask The Dust movie preview on wednesday, den go to blue heaven on thursday. It's blue heaven's 7th anniversay this year and they're celebrating it on the 13th and 14th. Buffet on the 13th... And we might go watch superman the movie on friday. Dominic asked me to go watch Thank you for not smoking with him. Maybe i should, but not this week. perhaps the next.

Went to church together with alex. not physically but virutally. cyber church service. the 5pm service at city harvest. Rev Dr Robb Thomson was speaking today. And he said about friends. what we should have in friends, or rather, how one can qualify to be my friend, mainly this 6 points:-

1) My friends must be comitted to long lasting relationships.
2) My friends must have empires in their brains.
3) My friends must qualify to receive my seed.
4) My friends must prize intergrity above relationships.
5) My friends must be willing to confront my enemies.
6) My friends must be sowers. - Your life is determined by your seed

And among that, some of the points that we picked up:-

1) Good is a choice. evil is an influence.
2) Concentrate on the thing that you're doing - a vision at a time. 2 visions = diversion

So who says that i dun attend church huh?? And i'll be going to FCC tomorrow with Nick. Am supposed to go since a few months back but kept pushing it back till now. 10.30am service - they only have 1 service. Invited Alex along but he said that he'll only go with me the next time i visit as he haven't been back to his church for the past 2 weeks. Yup, i understand him soi didn't "force" him.. haha...

Ate dinner which my parents ta-baoed for me.. quite ok.. den rotting until now.. oh ya.. i cleared my emails also, as in work emails. who says i dun work at home huh??? i work 7 days a week okie... (yeah right - making myself sound so hardworking...) haha...

Okie.. enough of crapping. It's time for me to sleep soon or something - but i dun feel sleepy... well, i guess i'll just have to force myself to sleep, else i wun have the energy to priase and worship God tomorrow morning.

And i just realised that the 40 days of prayer has started since 1 july. Oh no.. i'm 8 days late and i'm going to start it from tomorrow. Hope that i'll be able to keep it.. ahha... I would be either going for the total fast (24 hour fast - no food, only water) or the 1 meal fast - dun eat 1 meal a day. I am sure i would definately keep up to that.. haha... Okie - set. 1 meal fast. I wun eat luch everyday unless my boss asks me to accompany him den i'll fast for dinner. haha...

Nitez ppl.

God Bless!

SAFRA Member = Discount Tickets & SGBOY -> Trevvy

I'm a SAFRA member till year 2011. Members of SAFRA will be able to get tickets for movies screening at Golden Village Cinemas on friday evenings, weekends and public holidays at a discounted rate of S$8.00 instead of the usual S$9.50. I qualify for it. Yeah!

SGBOY to be re-branded as Trevvy.

The SGBOY name to be retained as part of its successor Trevvy.com slated for the third-quarter this year.

SGBOY, a household name among gay Singaporeans since 1999, will become a part of its next generation portal, Trevvy.com, as the main highlight of a major re-branding exercise that will see the new portal organizing various events and expanding its contents and user base to other countries in the region.

Trevvy.com is positioned as the successor to SGBOY.COM and will target an older demographic of gay executives aged 25 to 40. This keenly-planned re-branding effort is a response to the changing tastes of existing users as they mature, and to be more inclusive of other segments within the GLBT community. Trevvy.com hopes to capture a larger pool of new users from within the region, as well as infrequent SGBOY users, whose tastes and needs may not be adequately served by the current website.

Plans of a next-generation portal for the 7-year-old SGBOY.COM started almost 2 years ago. During the interim, users have been surveyed and consulted extensively as to the next phase of the website’s development and a possible name change for the reasons mentioned above. While most users polled recognized the need for expansion, many felt nostalgic about the SGBOY name. This feedback accounts for the retention of the SGBOY name as part of Trevvy.com and the assurance of continuity for all long-time SGBOY supporters. Most sections, including SGBOYX and the #sgboy IRC channel, will not see changes to their names. A user survey conducted in May 2006 further revealed that users were primarily concerned about the loading speed and connectivity issues of the website. Such issues will be given top priority with Trevvy.com.

Trevvy.com is a major milestone for SGBOY. The pioneer gay Singapore portal was launched in March 1999 as the Singapore Boy Homepage on GeoCities. It underwent its first makeover in the same year and became SGBOY.COM. Since then, it has been revamped a total of eight times - the latest being SGBOY version 8, also known as ‘SGBOY integr8’ and saw the introduction of the highly popular boyfiles feature.

The slick, cutting-edge visuals of Trevvy.com will be a complete overhaul to the current SGBOY.COM design. Trevvy.com will keep the red-and-white corporate colours of SGBOY, using a darker tone and a hint of minimalism to appeal to users with more refined tastes, while retaining the dynamism and friendliness long associated with SGBOY.

A team of experienced feature writers has been roped in to deliver an informative, trendsetting and fashion-forward editorial direction. Trevvy.com will speak to a new generation of young, intelligent and confident gay executives in the Asia-Pacific region on every aspect of their lives from fashion and current affairs to entertainment, sports, food, technology and relationships.

Web developers of Trevvy.com have been working on the new website for almost eight months. Expect to see all the familiar SGBOY features loaded on steroids and a streamlined user interface, which runs on newer and more powerful servers. An integrated tool would be introduced to improve communication among users. Existing SGBOY members need not re-register to use the new portal and Xcess subscribers will have their subscriptions carried over to the new premium membership known simply as Red.

Trevvy.com will be making its offline presence felt with several events in the pipeline, including a launch party, sports tournament and year-end concert. More details of the new portal and its activities will be announced over the next few weeks.

And i'm unable to connect to mirc from home. stopoid galaxynet....

Goodnight!

Tell The World

There's so many things to tell others about. My life and all that... It may be well, boring but of course, there's so many stories...

I think i'm liking someone.. but i dunno if it'll work out.. sigh... dun even know if the person likes me... signs please...... I think i'm just too sensitive - upon consultation from the master, SGBOY himself.. haha...

Tell the world that Jesus lives... It's in my head...

Love Jesus manz.... I'm a Jesus Freak - so what???

Jesus Freak by DC Talk...

Nitez...

Ethan Mao

Did nothing much today. woke up only at about noon and went to bedok reservoir - not to run. The National Dragonboat competition will be held there on 1 and 2nd july. It's was the first day today. Went there to take photos and it was rather saddening. not much good pictures to take.. and with the camera i was having, making it worse. no tele lens.

Came home after that. was supposed to go to all saints church for a memorial service for both my grandmothers. but was too tired, so didn't. Went online and chatted, and tried to sleep at 5pm. woke up at almost 8pm. i don't know if i slept at all a not. i was just tossing and turning around in bed. After waking up, i decided to watch the DVD that dom passed to me last week. Ethan Mao. It's a nice movie and i cried.. i really cried - i didn't tear - i cried coz it was so touching. it's so nice.. so sweet...

that brings me to a another topic - coming out. i shall write about that another time perhaps. my friend/collegue blogged about her coming out. you may read about it here at http://cryce.blogspot.com/ in the 30 June, Friday post.

More about Ethan Mao:

A psychological thriller, a coming-of-age drama, a gay love story, and a black comedy, Ethan Mao tells the story of an 18-year-old boy reaching the point of no return.

Booted out of his house for being gay, Ethan Mao survives on the street as a hustler. There he meets 19-year-old Remigio, a drug dealer and fellow hustler who takes him in. After being tipped off by his younger brother that his family is going on a day trip on Thanksgiving Day, Ethan asks Remigio for a ride to his family house to collect his belongings.

On that fateful day, Ethan’s family returns early to discover he and Remigo are looting the house. His father is shocked and enraged and forces Ethan into a physical confrontation. Holding his father at gunpoint, Ethan demands that his manipulative stepmother return his deceased mother’s diamond necklace only to find out she is keeping it in a safety deposit box at the bank.

IWith Remigio by his side, Ethan decides to hold his family hostage until the bank opens the next morning. In the waning desperate hours, Ethan, his family and Remigio are forced to confront their unresolved conflicts and feelings. As the tensions between Ethan and his family escalate, their inner demons and secrets unravel in this suspenseful and touching drama.

And i just received a latest news, well, not news actually, my friend would be delayed in returning. not today but tomorrow. my guess is that he can't get a flight back. so i dun think i'll be going to church after all... FCBC? maybe...

Goodnight people... Think i'm getting insomnia from dom.. Blessed people...