Valentine's Day

I get smses and PM's from people wishing me Happy Valentine's Day. What's so happy about valentine's day after all when you have no partner and/or not even a date? Valentine's Day to me is yet another day passing, making you one day older. It's one of the worst day of all. Seeing couples being intimate, kissing, hugging, holding hands and being so happy while for me, it's just the opposite.

It's yet another unproductive day. Woke up at 10am and powered on my pc. Checked emails and surfed the net. SGBOY.COM's down. I think the Lunar New Year bug has gotten hold of it as the server's been unstable since the eve of CNY. Updated the church's website and did the church's forums. I'm so glad that now the forums entitled BPMC Xchange is up and running. But again, who's going to use it? Am i going to see my efforts go down the drain again?

I'm feeling so lazy today. I've no mood even to go to classes. My mum chased me out of my room for my bath and out of the house to go for my lessons. I ended up in Jox. Bought myself a pair of swimming trunks. Cost me S$44. It's a pair of low-cut trunks from N2N. It's divided into 2 colors, black on top and light blue at the bottom.

Well, I'm still dwelling on my sadness and loneliness. I hate Valentine's Day. I wonder how others cope with this darned day. I'm going to sleep now, maybe chat with Naught on the phone for a while. He better chat with me and not fall asleep or else i would be very very upset...

And at least, Elmo's always here with me and i can hug Elmo to sleep everything.

I'm Sad. I'm Lonely. I'm Tired. Cannot Sleep. Cry Myself to Sleep.