Heart Broken

Went to SWEAT.04 @ Happy last night to distribute goodie bags containing condoms, lubes and discount vouchers. Left at 4am and went home to sleep.

Woke up rather late today and missed church as well as the 40 days of purpose group. Went out with Mike. He sort of dated me. We were like a couple, sharing things and holding hands. How i enjoyed the time spent with him. But then came the dissapointment.

After we left each other for home, i smsed him asking him if we're progressing or just remaining as friends. His response wasn't very positive saying that he's confused and needs some time to sort things out. I offered help, but he wanted to be alone. I respect his decision. One needs to be alone at times.

And for this, i'm just feeling heartbroken and upset... I somehow have the feeling that he's not only dating me, but someone else as well... sigh....

"God, I pray that You'll help me go through this stage. I pray that You give me what You want me to get. Lord, I pray that if You want Mike to be be with me and be my partner, I know that You will give Mike to me. I'm sad and heart-broken Lord. I pray that You will restore it. I pray that Lord, You will make me concentrate on You at this moment.
In moments like this
I sing out a song
I sing out a song to You Jesus
In moments like this
I lift up my voice
I lift up my voice to the Lord
Singing I Love You Lord
Singing I Love You Lord
Singing I Love You Lord
Singing I Love You Lord.
I pray that You will comfort me. I pray that Lord, You will help Mike as well. Help him sort out his confusions. Help him in everything that he does.
All these I ask in Jesus most precious name, Amen.