Lotsa things recently. First - Trevvy. Second - Ian & Tyler. Third - Alex. These 3 things are enough to make me crazy and stressed.
Trevvy's launched is delayed again. Ian and Tyler broke up again. It's hard being a good friend. NOt when you can't bring 2 persons face to face and then asking them to talk about it. O Wells, just another complicated issue.
Tyler's becoming a Brave model. Tyler finds Alex cute. Tyler's got the looks and the height. First Tyler asked me (or us, with alex) out for movie. Then he just asked Alex out, maybe coz i was slow in replying. Fine. I was feeling sad or jealous thereafter.
Why should i get affected??? Oh gosh. I'm not even attached to Alex. I'm not even his Partner. well, business partner - yes. But why can't he just get out of my head? This is seriously not helping. I should just stay away from him and stop meeting him.
What's the point of making myself feel hurt and bad when he's not even my partner?!?!? Grrr... I'm always in the losing end - yeah!
Caring for him - yes, coz i guess i still like him. But what's the use of having a 1 sided love and to get hurt in return? it's no point. useless. just hurting myself even more. I had a little thought about suicide for the first time. Oh My! why did i??? That should never even come to my mind. What will happen to my parents? To Dom? To ASM??? To all my friends??? well, suicide is never the way out. it's only for losers - I'm not. I've saved by GRACE by GOD! Oh my - i'm tearing.... GOD! FATHER! HELP ME! WORTHY IS THE LAMB!
Sigh...
Time to sleep. - Thanks very much Christel.
NItez.
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