I believe in Jesus

Title of this post is such as the lyrics of the song I'm listening to now is such.

The day after i started ignoring someone, i received a message that they had parted ways, and would remain only as friends. This left my thinking.

Watched Just Sebastian last night at the Esplanade Recital Studio with Sennie. It was quite ok. Jeremy was supposed to meet us at the door at 10.30pm, but he was late as usual. We proceeded to the new club, Play. It was bad. Music was horrendous as well. If they dun change their music, i guess they need not renovate the place as even after they renovate, no one would go...

Met Nikki and her boyfriend inside Play. Since it was so bad, i proceed to Mox with Sennie and Jeremy and Nikki joined us thereafter. And we headed to Maxwell shortly with Nikki's other-half tagging along. Nikki went home and Sennie and I sent Jeremy to Andrew's house. He fell asleep rather soon. Not sure how true that is as he didn't even answer my calls or smses. Sennie and I walked around the city and i reached home and slept only at 8.30am.

It's my mum's birthday today. I was supposed to have a dinner with my parents at my friend's place as well as a appointment with Shahril, my ITE classmate at 2.30pm. Dinner was from Amici. My friend's son opens an upmarket Italian restaraunt with an outlet at Holland Village and Tanjong Pagar. Since i slept only at 8.30am, i pushed the appointment back to 4pm. And I had to cancel the appointment with him as Jeremy wanted to meet me to cut his hair at Bedok as well as for dinner. He arrived home at 4pm and wanted to nap till 6pm. It was fine with me. I called him at 6pm, 6.10pm, 6.16pm and 7pm. No answered. Alas, i knew that i had wasted my day on him. Now, everything's gone just because of 1 person. I should have left the house and headed down to Bishan at 6pm when my dad smsed me asking if i really didn't want to join them intsead of me waiting for him. That's just how foolish i am all because of someone who's always late.

He smsed me at 8.45pm with Sorry. Can it be undone? It just seems that being late, but about 20mins to 30 mins is just a norm for someone. So what if his clock is 20 mins faster? It's of no use. The mind thinks to itself that it's ok as the clock's fast and therefore, you're back to square 1.

He wanted to meet me again tomorrow. I declined as he still had his research to do. He's already failed one of his tests, getting a 9/20 mark. I wouldn't want to be blamed for him not doing well. And besides, there's no use of me meeting him. Let's say, if we were to meet say for dinner, for 2 hours, the actual time spent would only about for 1.5 hours as 30 mins would be wasted on waiting for him. What's the use? I would rather spend the 30 mins doing someone more productive and useful.

I'm not sure of my plans tomorrow. Today has gone down the drain and i have a feeling that tomorrow will go down the drain as well.

My last meal's at 2am at Maxwell early this morning. It's back to my cereals now. I'm famished.

I pity myself for getting into all this shit. Self pity.