Falling Sick

It has been busy in Army... Shifting of office... luckily the same floor and not like from 2nd to 1st or to 3rd which is worse.... den this morning raining cats and dogs also...

Ate chicken rice at the swimming pool canteen for the first time and it was rather nice.. haha...

I had to go office to conduct a brefing... went quite well...

but.. i'm falling sick.... blocked nose for the past week and today, sore throat and feeling a little feverish... if it still persists tomorrow, den will have to go see doctor liaoz....

and the office still dun have broadband... actually, line's activated but modem still not delievered.. actually delievered, but failed twice... once wrong location, 2nd mum feel asleep whiel waiting and so now must wait till 2mororw for them to deliever...

and stoopid MDIS called my hse to inform that i didn't attend classes... and i got a screwing from my mum... grrr...

And worse of all, i'm still single... it's not the status that's bothering me... but it's tat my heart is still stolen by tat same guy who refuses to give me his.. haha.... why am i still waiting? i dunno...

i just like him.. i dunno why.. maybe it's coz of his attributes??? sigh...

He sent to me the song by britney, everyday... and listening to that song, how i wish tat i can have tat song specially for him... the worst part is that i dunno how he feels about me.. and also if he's ready for anotehr relationship...

wen will this end? i do not know... will i keep waiting?? i dunno... will the heart die?? i dunno... but if one day after a few months and he wants me, will i want him? yes, i do... and how i wish i can just ask him if i can actually have his heart to fill my emppty space in my heart... and the answer from him is, yes, i do....

are these just dreams? well, maybe i can continue to dream on... or maybe it'll just come true.. i dunno...

i was asked.. what if he justs go stead with me, just to make me happy, den maybe have sex, and break off after 2 weeks... how would i feel.. it all depends... what's the reason for breaking off... isit coz the love died? or these's no love??? or he was cheating on me??? but well, i will just respect, honor, obey, follow and try as much as i can to do what he wants...

i love him... it's kinda of like so far yet so near... arghh... torture emotionally???

signing off...

Goodnight everyone.. And to him too..